Since my dad has a new job, I don't see him often. He's a alcoholic and is drunk now and it was the first time he told me that he really loves me. He's drunk every night and gets slighty aggressive and I have to take care of him. Because If I wouldn't, noone would. I'm so scared that one day he'll stop breathing or something will happend or I'll lose him. I tried not to burst out and cry but I miss my old father and my childhood. It's so heartbreaking..