I never let anyone get close, because feel they are better of without me. It's why I didn't tell him my feelings. He's better off without me. It killed me when he moved away. Not a day goes by where I don't feel a sharp pain in my chest when he pops into my mind. He'll find a beautiful woman over there and get married and be happy. Even though it pains me to be away, It makes me happy to see him enjoying his life, even if i'm not a part of it.