I broke up with my be of 5 years 4 months ago and have been parting and not living the life I wanna live. I'm board so I drink and hang out with the wrong people. I left the relationship because I wasn't happy but what I am doing right now isn't making me any happier I'm just lonely and making the wrong choices. I've never been this person to drink and party all the time have one night stands. This isn't who I am or who I want to be. I think about just stop talking to my new friends who really think they have me tricked I know what's going on I'm just fighting a battle within I don't have the strength or want to point of the reality shit either .