I'm lost within reality. I don't know what to do, I want to tell an ex that I want a second chance but don't want it to scare him away. If I hold back then I risk the chance of him doubting my feelings towards him and pushing him away. I want to tell him and need to, but I don't know if I'm ready to know our true fate. If we can never be an us again I risk losing everything i've worked on and staying stong for, pushig myself forward, everything was being drawn off the strength he showed me that was within myself. Without him I know I will fall, depression will hit me hard and I'll be back to nothing. I have came so far because of him, can I risk losing everything? My dreams of being back in his arms will fade and my hope will perish. Am I really ready to face the reality if we can never be an us again? Life without hopes of happiness, am I strong enough for it? I hardly made it out the first time we broke up, I lost and fell into an abusive relationship with no love or trust because I didn't know what to do or who was wrong for me or that I could do better. Because of him I found my strength that I buried and pulled myself out. That one person in your life that makes you smile, brings you up, gives you hopes and dreams, makes everyday worth living, can I live without him? I'm stuck wanting to put my heart back out there again, but don't want to know the reality. I want to live in my dreams forever, but dreams fade. I never want to lose but can't seem to win, so what do I so now?