I'm so self-concious that I can't function properly in life. I have a boyfriend who I think is way out of my league.. I can hardly go out in public anymore because I feel like I embarrass him. he says I'm beautiful every day but when I look at myself I see something that could be so much better. I try dressing up and looking pretty sometimes but it never works, I always end up just throwing on jeans and cowgirl boots on putting on my ballcap to hide my face. sometimes its so bad I just take burning hot showers until my skin is bright red then lock myself in my room and have a break down. I'm disgusting and hideous. and its ruining my life.