I miss my ex boyfriend but at the same time I hate him. He left me. . I was head over heels for him. I was crushed. He refused to talk to me at all for months and then just when I started feeling better, he tells me he was wrong and misses me. I couldn't go back to him. I would never be able to trust him. It's been 5 years and I'm married with a child, and he still messages me every now and then just to tell me he still hasnt been with anyone else. Ugh! I love my husband to death but it's not the kind of love that I felt towards my ex. Why must he kill my soul.