I've loved my ex for 4 years now. She has a boyfriend. This is killing me from inside. I mean that. I am not depressed - I am trying to continue with my life and succeeding but something is missing. She is missing. Not a day goes by with outh me thinking about her. And every time I see her I fall again and again in love. She has the smile to make me feel like everything is OK even if it is falling apart. I do realise I am most likely never going to be with her again but she will always remain the first and only woman I've ever loved. I will go back in time to the memories with her as long as I live. PS - Not 15 years old.. just tired of not hoving single person I can talk about it - they are all sick of me thinking about her.