i feel like my life will never be mine. every one of my siblings has special needs and my parents depend a lot on me to watch them when they have to go to work and stuff. i feel like i could never move out, get married, have kids or a career. i don't think i will be able to find a man that will wanna marry someone that has the responsibilities that i have. i feel like my life will never be mine. suicide intrudes my mind constantly, now more than it did before because i'm getting older and i don't feel like i have anything to be proud of.