I feel like I'm in competition with my cousin. Every one likes her more including my family. Seems like she's prettier but yet I get told we look a lot alike. She's 27 and I'm 22. She hangs out with more girls my age than I do. I go to college an am clean and sober and trying to do something with my life. She's a pot head with a kid and working at a restaurant here in town. I'm not saying she's a bad person because she's not I love her but we are just different and I always feel insecure with myself when I'm around her. I don't feel like I even fit in my family or even in my own life or skin. I'm not jealous because I don't want to be like her but just have always felt like she has it better in our family than I do including with my own parents.