Im 25 years old never had a serious relationship and only a few short over the years. I fell in love so hard with a woman that has been on my mind for 4 years but we havent been in contact consitently. She has never been single for all the time i knew her and we had a short fling when she was with someone but it was wrong and we stopped. We hadnt talked for a year and she popped back in my life and i told her i dont wanna be her friend im interested in more than that only and i havent spoken to here since. Its been a month i know shes not interested but this whole thing is weghing on me. I feel like im wasting my best years and i cant enjoy them thinking about this one person. I feel like my life is passing by. Im quite good looking, fit, i have many girls that hit on me and wanna be with me but i cant get even remotely interested in them, i just want her and nothing feels the same. Im feeling more and more depressed day by day and im starting to hate my life and be angry and sad at the same time, all the time.