I have a male friend that is one of the best men, and best daddy that ive ever met. He is so kind,loving, gentle and wants to be with me. He is the kind of man that i dreamed id be with when i was very young. The thing is, i met and fell in love with another man. We have a daughter now and 5 years later we are engaged to be married. I love my fiance, i truely do. But i feel such strong emotions and connections to my friend... if this makes sense, i love then both, equally but in different ways. I couldnt imagine my life with out my fianceand id never want to hurt our daughter. He takes care of me, he knows how to operate my body, he treats me great. But i worry that once our daughter gets older and leaves home, we wont have any common interests anymore. I KNOW that id be personally internally happier with my friend. I can just see it in the way he looks at me. Im at such a cross. I dont want my family ripped apart, but i want to be happy again...i mean truely happy. Not just living day to day. I cheated on him today. I had sex with my friend. I didnt mean to have sex with him when we hungout. He kissed me...and i mean...there were sparks! There were fireworks...and i never experienced that with my fiance. And one thing lead to another. Ive never cheated in my life before! And i dont want to hear anything about how bad cheating is. Im not a hoe. I equally love two men. The question is... do i sacrifice my own happiness for the happiness of my daughter? And just so yall know...my relationship with my fiance is fine. We are compatible! And our life just works right now.