I enjoy being feared. I don't fear pain, death or rejection. So It makes me happy to see others in pain and in fear. I have a lot of sociopathic and sadistic tendencies, i enjoy it when an ex gf sees me and i can see the sadness in her face. The way her face just mixes horror and sadness leaves me breathless and lighthearted. Even girls who like me and i reject them, i enjoy seeing them in distress when they see me. i like having the power to ruin someones day just by showing my face.