When I was in 7th or 8th grade, I was a bully. I used to be the coolest guy between friends. I used to have girlfriends, I was confident and I was feeling better. Then my family's economical situation got so bad. Money was always a problem. I was no more cool guy. I coundt make friends. Some people made fun of me in highschool. Then I met a girl on chatroulette and I felt attached to her for 2 years now. Since 2 years I feel really depressed, I cry at nights and I hate my life. I study engineering. I almost have no friends. I am single since 5 years, 19 years old an a virgin. I didn't want to live anymore but I didn't want to upset my family. I don't believe, things will be better in future.