I hung out with some kids I knew from my college and we ended up drinking. There was a kid I've always kinda liked there he's older than me. We ended up making out intensely and he lifted me on the kitchen counter and he accidentally pushed me in the sink. The other kids there heard and the one kid whose house it was yelled not to break anything. I was so embarrassed but I can't stop thinking about him and how I kinda want to **** him but I'm a virgin. We were both drunk and I've been too afraid to say anything to him about it. Nothing happened but making out and grinding but when I left he said I was a good lover. I am so embarrassed to see everyone in class.