When i was 10 years old my father beat me up for the First time, i did Not just get slapped. I was sitting on the floor playing with my brothers when my father Run up the stairs slapped me so i was lying on the floor and started kicking me while i was lying there crying. My siblings were watching it. Afterwards He pulled me into my Room took a wood Stick with an Iron core ( like you use to Playe billiard) and continued hitting me. This is one of my only memories of my childhood. I suffer From severe Depression and propably a personality-dissorder this week i have an appointment with a psychologist .