We broke up because of our constant fighting and the mutual emotional abuse that we were dishing out to each other. It's been three years since I put my arms around her and I can't stop thinking about her now. I don't know if it's because I'm lonely and self conscious (I'm overweight) and think that she's all I can get, or if I actually miss her, or if I'm just horny. For all of our problems and for all of her flaws, she was a good person and there were times where I was convinced she loved me. I just don't want to be alone anymore. I would take her back, but I don't want to get abused again, nor do I want to put my family through the stress of the previous relationship. Sometimes I just get the urge to message her and to meet her again. It's driving me insane with anger and sadness and I just can't take it anymore.