I am married and have two amazing children, but I have never been in love with my husband. He is sweet and caring, and I know I should love him. He is the perfect man. But I am still in love with my boyfriend, who died in a car crash 30 years ago. I know I will never love another man, because he was the love of my life. It was love from the very first second I saw him, and my love never changed. I visit his grave every year on our anniversary. And I feel like I am cheating on my husband. He doesn't deserve this.