I can't handle being behind on my bills. I can't bring myself to my wife about the twenty tthousand dollars I owe I back sales tax payments, fifty thousand dollar mortgage on the house, and twenty thousand second mortgage. I'm selfemployed and I lost two months income hospitalized for depression. I take seven antidepressants, blood pressure meds, and pills so I can sleep at night. I wish I could just go back to when my wife thought I was shagging my secretery.