I don't know how to feel. I'm having a boyfriend for four years. We are in a long distance relationship for two years now. I see my boyfriend like once a month or so. He is my first boyfriend ever. I love him & I can picture us having kids and buying a house in the future, so we can be a perfect couple. But not at the moment. When I see him I not feel physicaly attracted. I want him to be with me but at the same time I want to try things with other guys and know what it's like to be single and "free". I'm confused about my feelings. I don't want to lose him. Please help.