Tomorrow the one woman who means everything to me is coming over to my place to visit me. She will stay for a couple of days and then go back to her home (in a different country, btw). I am loving her with all my heart and soul. The thing is, she currently has a boyfriend, but that relationship will end soon, very soon. She feels the same about me, but we both have a sense for when it isn't appropriate and it currently isn't because of her boyfriend. We will be together, it's just a matter of time, but my mind keeps telling me something of great importance. I will kiss her either tomorrow or the day after, that depends on finding the right moment, and the reason for my wish to kiss her, is that I can't stop thinking "what if something happens to me or even to her and I would never have the opportunity to feel her lips?" So, I will kiss her. I still wonder what will happen after that and how it will affect our relationship... maybe it will begin, then. She is the first and only one, to make me want to be a better person, physically and mentally, to be the best I can, to make my life go well and make it mean something, if only to me, and then I want her to be a part of it. In the long run I will ask her to marry me... I already think about if I could ever change her thoughts about having children, I would love to have children some day. For now I'm planning everything to move to her country to be close to her and to get some closure for all the bad stuff that happened to me. A new start and my first love who feels the same about me, now that's giving me the chance to lead a good life, right? Thanks for reading and sorry for eventually bad english. I wish you all the luck in the world.