I was raised by my grandparents. I'm married for two years now, only 22 two years old. My grandmothers very ill and has a very weak heart. She could last a year, or 10 years. No one knows but I wouldn't count on it being the latter. I know, especially growing up the way I did, how important it is to be financially stable and mentally ready to have children. But the one thing I want most for in life right now is for my Grandma, my Mother, to see my first born and hold my child. It would mean the world to me. I sometimes wish I could be like the peers of my high school and just have a kid right now. But that would be selfish and stupid. Yet everyday I worry as she grows weaker.