I had the best friendship with a guy for 9 years. When he moved away in November we started talking more and developed feelings we never had before. We started dating in February and everything changed. Things went from bad to worse. I woke up one day and decided I had to break up with him. I was plotting the mist sincere way to do it when i got a message from him breaking up with me. I act like everything is okay and tell everyone it was a mutual agreement. Truth is i think i love him, and i miss him, and i hate the fact that we messed up our 9 year old friendship. Fuck my life.