This evening I just really need a hug. Months a go I made a decision. If I had chosen differently my life would be completely different. While I don't regret the decision I made, I can't help but wonder how different my life would be right now. For example, instead of curling up in bed with a glass of wine and watching Netflix I would have been curling up exhausted from looking after a new born. My head is spinning with this idea and I just need a hug.