I've had a few friends through the years who I thought were loyal and trusted them things I had never told anyone about. They betrayed me, back stabbed me and then made fun of me. I have never been in a serious relationship because of the examples of men that I have in my family. Not good examples. I grew up in the middle of a group of people who I learned I could never trust again, ever. That's why I can't trust anyone. I don't know how to. I keep things to myself, write them down when I feel I'm about to explode and that's it. I don't have a "best friend" and though it sometimes bugs me because I feel lonely, I just don't care. I don't mind at all ending up like a crazy cat lady if it means I won't go through the pain of being betrayed again.