She tells me she isn't readying for relationships, then goes along and has a new man. Apparently she respects me too much, she's a cheater and she knows it.and no matter how much she loves me, like she claimed before, she can't bring herself to hurt me. Little does she know she's already killing me. I'm so goddamn in love with this girl, I'm practically killing myself over her. I don't want her out of my life, but, for the better, I should burn bridges... 16 years of friendship and love down the drain. I might not be able to do it.