i always feel like singing, every minute, every second, even in my mind, i sing sing sing. i would love to start a channel on youtube but i can't sing home because my father would hear me and i could never be myself around him, never. and i can't do anything i love. even when i paint, i hide my sheets away because he once saw one of my paintings and said "who dafuq did this". i feel ashamed to even laugh around him, he's such a pain in the ass and has a way to criticise every fucking thing. i have very very high grades, awesome well educated friends, i haven't ever got in big troubles, i don;t di drugs, don't drink but there's always something wrong for my father. i wonder how he would have handled a crazy fuc*ed up kid, and btw, i have every right to be a fucked up kid cause my mom just died and my father makes everything even harder.