i'm really lost, i feel nothing like emotion or compassion. I'm a blank page, i cannot get an emotional relation with someone/something. and whenever i try to feel that kind of love or/and compassion, i end up hurting people. I just want somebody that i can love. I get thoughts that no healthy person would get, like how to make the perfect crime, or how I would assassinate people. i would never do it ofcourse, i'm smart enough to erase those thoughts when the of killingy pop-up in my head. I'm very arrogant, ignorant and selfish. I have absolutely no idea why. can someone just, help me?