I don't mind heartache I really don't. I've accepted that it's part of life and that you get over the initial feeling. What makes me sad is the complete heart shattering experience. I'm stuck in this horrible sad feeling. I've tried to fill the void with many experiences and spending time with my friends, but for the most part it's been a waste because as a I wait to sleep, which is rare now due to this sadness, all the thoughts swarm back into my head as a constant reminder of how inadequate I really am. The real bad things about all of this is I've grown complacent in my sadness. So much so that I can now hide my sadness from everyone. I'm starting to like this now.