I am a sex addict and married with the women of my life. we also had an epic sex life. but after she gave birth to our first son she stopped / is not interested in sex anymore. after 6 month I started to regularly cheat on her. I just need it even if I know its wrong (and yeah I talked with her I need it before I cheated multiple times). am I a bad person? now the affair felt in love with me. I'm scared she will tell my wife. what should I do now?