i find it disconcerning of how much a girl can have an affect on my life. I did not chicken out, i told her how i feel. Unfortunately, in her eyes, i will always be just a Friend. I thought to myself, if i liked her enough to want to date her why should'nt I be her friend. I realized the true pain of being friends with someone you continue to fall deeper and deeper for, and yet I remain powerless. I tried to find someone else to try and get her out of my mind and my heart, but it did not work. I want to end our friendship so I can start to forget her, but since I see her almost every day, it's impossible. What hurts the most is that we are now very close friends and we spend alot of time together, so i know alot about her and i know how to make her happy. I seem to fall for amazing girls who are already spoken for, i always find that out after I tell them or when I tell them how I feel. This girl is something different though and nothing like other girls i have met. To have someone take over me completely is strange, it's something I'm not used to, it's something that has truly changed me. I only wish I can make someone feel the same about me.