Why am I so intense? When I love, I love so hard. It feels like a drug to submit to my emotions and give my all to someone I care about. The thing is, I can't act that way though because it freaks people the fuck out. Now I'm with someone and I've showed that side to them and it doesn't go well... I constantly hide that side of myself because I'm scared they'll leave me if I let it out. I feel like people love me only when I don't give a fuck. And it's really hard for me to not care about stuff but I do it because I want to feel loved. Sorry. I hope this made some sense.