It is so frustrating that there is a guy in my life who I find really great, he's funny, kind, hard working, good values, weird, sweet, handsome, confident... And who also finds me cute, sexy, intelligent, interesting, appreciates my values, trusts me, has even described me as the perfect woman... And still I can't have him because he is in a happy, long term relationship. :( Last night I dreamt that he became mine, it was such a lovely feeling. Sometimes I think it could actually happen, but I'm not pushing for it, I'm no home wrecker, if he's happy with her I don't want to interfere. Sometimes he looks at me with that sparkle guys gets in their eyes when they're falling for you, but I don't think he even realizes that he feels this way about me and he seems to be very happy with his girlfriend. My friends have asked if something is going on because of the way I talk about him, and when people who don't know his situation see us together they think we're an item. I wish... He is like one of my closest friends, though we're only really work colleagues. I can talk to him about anything and we support each other and encourage each other and give each other a reality check when needed. And we can joke and make fun of each other and have nonsense conversations that we both still get. Sometimes I think it's best to keep him as a friend as friendships tend to last longer, and for the first years I knew him I only considered him a good friend and colleague, but in the last year or so my feelings have changed and I've started wishing he was mine... I can't seem to decide whether to try to move on or whether to wait and see if I have a chance.. I want to do both and I want to do neither.