Since im 16 and done with school and started my apprenticeship I think my life is getting destroyed everyday a lil bit more. I love my job, my family and my friends. but i made in just one fucking year so many mistakes.1. I started drinking alot (it's legal) and taking drugs like a fucking addict. I'm just smoking some weed... most times... but i started to do lsd and ecstasy with friends. At first we just wanted to try it but we thought it's great so we did it more often. I wake up think about my life and roll a joint and on the weekends partying on hard drugs. 2. I cheated on my gf because I'm a fucking idiot. I loved her so much and i kinda still do, i never thought about marriage or kids but i thought she'd be the girl in my future ... my future wife... I never told her that i cheated on her because i didnt wanted her to know. I just broke up with her saying that she deserves someone better than me. Someone who doesn't pull her down. Someone who can give her what she deserves a stable future someone who would never cheat on her. Someone who's not a f***** idiot like me. I thought about giving up a lot lately but my best friends get me up everyday.