I don't know what to do, I'm sick of pretty much anything... I would want to start running, but as I know myself I'm gonna quit before even trying. Feels like I just watch tv and eat. Some year ago I had a depression for a long time, and an eating dissoreder on top of that. I feel like a fatty, I don't want to have sex anymore with my bf, cus im not worth looking at even. Ugh...I don't know what I'm doing. I'm never going to be good, eventually my boyfriend will get sick of me, all those thought I have had about hurting myself will come to life and I will lay in my bed till the day I die. I just feels like there is no purpose, I do everything but I can't do a thing right.