A few months ago, I posted a confession on here about wanting to talk to a guy I went to high school with before he goes to Basic Training. He flirted with me back then but my self esteem was too low to believe he was serious. Anyway, I just wanted to update anyone who might be wondering. I didn't get the guts to talk to him. I got the guts to request following his Instagram account. He accepted it, followed back, and liked one of my pictures. That's a small victory I'm proud of. But he just left for Basic today and I never got the nerve to talk to him. He's also back together with his ex girlfriend and seems happy. I'm not mad that he's happy, especially not when it's my fault I didn't try anything. I also said in the last confession that even if he wouldn't want a romantic relationship, I still wanted to tell him I'm proud of him and want to be friends. That's still true. I just hate that I couldn't do it. I'm scared if I don't do it, I won't get a chance again. I want to tell him I'm proud of him, I'll be thinking of him and praying for his safety, I'm happy for him, I'm sorry if I hurt him back then, and explain myself. I just done know how to. I don't want to come across as desperate or like I'm trying to steal him from his girlfriend. I don't want to seem like I'm the type of woman only interested in military men for the benefits and sex appeal. Because I'm not. Back in middle and high school, I had no idea he wanted to get in the Air Force, or about benefits for military wives. I don't want to make him uncomfortable. My only way of contacting him is through social media but the idea of messaging him out of nowhere terrifies me. I can't tell through his expression or body language how he feels about it.