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I'm still in love with my Snow Doll. That's how he would let me call him. He was and still is an IT consultant, I was introduced to him by quite close friends of a same circle, in last few days of 2009. The same group had a New Year's Eve party that year. We entered 2010 together. Back then nothing happened even though we kissed, he was working in UK and me living in Portugal. Only a year later in 2011 we began to unexpectedly share some secrets from time to time. I'm sure he loved me and he actually said it and acted like it at a later stage, as we began to get closer and build some intimacy. And I... oh, it was obvious I deliberately showed signs of loving him too. Circumstances weren't favourable for us, as in our time hanging out, he used to traveled a lot. We both lived in Portugal, but his company had a project with a client in Amsterdam, Netherlands, he worked there 4 or 5 days a week, his company paid all his trips to and from. Most weekends would be spent in Portugal and it was kinda awesome. I surprised him once in the airport, I didn't even know he traveled on mondays, often he'd only leave on tuesdays. I had only 2 hours class in university on mondays back then, I'd often go to the airport and find a nice spot to take airplane photos and watch them take off and land in Porto, Portugal. But he was there that day and that was when things started to become serious. We were always being nice to each other, like one would plan and execute a surprise and another would execute a retribution. It was becoming clear that we loved each other, more than we think we would in an official relationship. But soon enough he wasn't too happy in his company so he found another similar IT consultant job in Denmark. The previous one was and Indian company, of course they'd pay all the traveling to keep the Portuguese working in the Netherlands. But this other company was in Denmark, and... he'd have to move there, definitely. So he went... we had a special farewell, he saved me for last. This man respected me to a point that he would only move forward physically if I would allow. That was priceless. We spent his last night in Portugal together, had breakfast together, I was the only person to take him to the airport. Then my Snowie flew... months have passed, we remained in touch but I guess the flame went out during his time in Denmark. As a surprise he went back to Portugal in 6 months. The company in Denmark didn't work out pretty well. After many repressed feelings he finally gained courage to tell me how it was hard to be telling people that he went back home because things have gone wrong there. I understood it all. So he scheduled this meeting... finally he'd decided to see me after all his friends have laid eyes on him already!... Then something came up, his parents wanted to have dinner with him. I was so ready to go meet him but he was like "I don't know what time I'll be done" and all... i got tired and I said something like wanting him to make a decision. He opted to push and put a raincheck again. Well I know... it's no news, he himself often confessed he'd kinda chicken out normally when the slightest pressure arises, especially when he feels like he's hurting someone, he doesn't bear that feeling. So he felt it, and... from that day on in August 2012, it's almost 3 years since he decided to not say a single word to me. We never got to solve things and work it out. Now I'm in Macau because I was jobless in Portugal and tired of depending on my mom when I finished university. Guess it's pointless now, he's in Portugal and I'm not anymore. Between 2012 and now 2015 so much has happened... I saw my dad pass away in Portugal, I moved out from my mom's and worked 2 jobs in Macau.. still not a word from my Snow Doll. I've had a crush here and there... but he's still the one I dream of, he's still my safe place... but not a word from him. I confess that somehow I still believe when the pain, the pride, the hard feelings are gone, one of us will end up talking again. He wasn't a bad guy...

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  • I think you didn't need to mention all of his destinations. it's sort of irrelevant to the story and just made it unnecessarily confusing. But, have you considered trying to find him?

  • @OP: No you didnt write too much. Thanks for sharing your story :)

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