on new years eve i decided to try and find something to give me happiness, and i had set a target for six months. now, four months in, im afraid that there is little that can make me happy anymore. i will not give up, but in two months time, if i cant find happiness, if i cant find anything that would let me enjoy life, then there is no reason left for me to live on. i am grateful for what i have, and for what i have accomplished in life, but how important can my achievements and accomplishments be, if to this day i am miserable. i want to live, i just need a reason.