I hate life more then anything ever, it's been a living hell. I hate my mum I hate everything about her and my family. I want my own life, my own family I wish I could start over again. I hate myself, I look in the mirror and just remember who I am a nobody with no future I'm ugly not the brightness guy around and I know that. I feel like I'm being lied to when ppl say I'm smart it feels like a big F*** u to me cause I'm know I'm not. And I'm poorer then shit I never finished high school my biggest dream was to join the marines but that was just a dream and no longer an option. My dad hates me I don't blame him I hate my self. I'm probably just gonna end up like an alcoholic like the rest of my family.