This is really messed up but everything I do never makes me happy, sometimes I think life would be better if I was on my own or dead somewhere. I get a job, a husband, a future and none of it makes me happy anymore. it's like I am never content with anything, I mean if I had a million dollars.. I wouldn't be happy. I'd just think of how shitty life is. I mean you live one life , you work for all this shit, for what?