Sometimes I wish I could hate my mom. like never forgive or talk to her again, the amount of damage she's done to me is ridiculous. I've never had a mother figure, never had a mother actually there for me and what's even worse is all the memories I have of her is her being drunk trying to fuck all my boyfriend. Two years ago while I was in the hospital getting surgery she called my fiance at the time and fucked him in the hospital parking lot, apparently they went to a bar and got drunk and my fiance decided to fuck her. I mean what mom would fucking do that? not to mention she's jealous of my youth. oh well right?