Sense three years ago I have never been able to hold down a relationship for long or date white guys and this is why Three years ago I was with my ex who was white. It was spring break. Things go heated and he said he didn't have protection. So I suggested we buy some the next day. Well he made me buy them. That night things got heated(it was my first time remember this) but instead of foreplay and undressing me he made me undress myself. I was also dry. So he went in and he wouldn't let me touch him and he looked at the ceiling. It was so painful I could not tell him to stop. When he was finished he put his pants on and rolled over his back to me. I cried all night. The next morning I fainted in the shower. He was also abusive. He'd hit me and call me a bit** and not in a joke way. It's been three years and I haven't been able to trust anyone to be intimate again sense then, and my relationships have been crap.