I always seem happy and seem like i'm enjoying myself but i am not at all like this. I feel alone, like nobody understands me and nobody is really there for me even though i'm surrounded by people every day. I don't talk to anybody about this because i don't want to bother them and i just feel scared. Scared because i don't know where i'm going and i feel like i'm going to be alone all my life. I don't want my life to go on like this, i need it to change but i don't know how and i feel like i'm the biggest disappointment ever.