I've been in a relationship for years. the first few i cheated numerous times with only one other man. my boyfriend was verbally abusive and i felt like i was in love with him. in fact for awhile he convinced me i couldn't do better. fast forward a few years, he is no longer abusive and actually treats me the way i wish he would have years ago. i feel bad about cheating but at the time it was the only thing that got me through the day.