We did it without protection yesterday. I'm a little scared. The period tracker app on my phone said I'm fertile (I guess meaning my uterus lining is thickening) but I'm not due to ovulate for three more days. I don't know how accurate the ovulation predictor is but its prediction of my period has been pretty accurate so far. I'm already getting some cramps and I'm scared it's implantation cramps. I'm not ready for a baby. I'm not. I can't support a baby. I can't really support myself because I don't have a job at the moment. I didn't plan this. It just happened. If I can get on Medicaid, WIC, food stamps, TANF, electric assistance, and a free phone from social services, my basics will be covered. I already have income based housing and either of my grandparents could take me in if I needed it. But that still doesn't cover diapers, clothes, bottles, a crib, car seat, car insurance, gas, car maintenance, and everything else that social services won't pay for. It also doesn't get my boyfriend and possible baby daddy living close to me. He lives five hours away. He can't move here because of school and the economy over there is better. But I'm not ready to leave my family and move there. But long distance parenting isn't going to work. And I don't want to lose him. Abortion is an option, I guess. But not one I want to do. That would be my child with the man I love. By the time I even know abortion is an option, I'd know I have our child growing inside me and I can't do that. It wasn't made with a stranger or an abuser. It wasn't made during a drunken or high night. It was made out of love, not purposely, just out of not slowing things down to think. If it was made, that is. If it is being made right now, there's a reason for it. I'm going to look into how much plan b costs. I'll see if the health department carries it. As much as I love my man and want to have kids with him someday, I'm not ready for it right now. I'm just scared for what if plan b doesn't work because it's already been implanted.