So let me tell the whole story... I'm 17. This guy I had a huge crush (A) on would talk to me like a friend. Nothing more and he never flirted with me. I have this really awful cousin (B) who steals everyone's boyfriend. And she does this to her own family. She breaks most of their hearts before the guys get a chance to. Anyways, One day B brings this guy (D) she was all in love with to my house and leaves him there!! I was talking to A, my crush, all day that day and He fibally asjed ke out! D was trying to get my attention the whole time.. I knew he was cause he would stare at me till I finally asked him what he was looking at.. He would just smile and look away. That night he smoked with all my cousins (I don't smoke) and my cousins thought it would be hilarious to leave him with me.. He started touching me and make me feel uncomfortable (I was a virgin back then). He got on top of me and he would force me to kiss him. I would cover my mouth with my hand and he would hold them above my head and force kisses on me. (I was 15 and he was 18) He wouldn't stop no matter how many times I told him to. Finally he grabbed me and put me on the floor, Pulled my pants half ways down and that's how I lost my virginity. I felt disgusting. I didn't even feel like I deserved love after that. I never told A what happened. As a matter of fact I didn't care if it happened again. And it did.. 3 times after that.. Is that rape? I mean I was really uncomfortable and I didn't want it but I let it happen multiple times after that. Me and A are still together. B hates me till this day because she says I took her first love. D moved on and I haven't spoke to him since... This story is almost 3 years old..