I have to much to decide ... Probably won't get into college ... I have a low GPA can't keep my grades straight , I miss a lot of days and my mind is a mess . I cry myself to sleep ,and I hate the way life seems to always be so horrible ... I'm a failure and I feel that I'm always going to be , I need someone to help me and I want to make it all stop . The thought .. My feelings ... Everything . I want to disappear .