I want to tell him I miss him. But I don't want to sound desperate. And he already knows this break up wasn't my idea. He knew it would hurt me. He most likely knows I miss him. And he said he's doing great. If that's true, he doesn't miss me. He doesn't regret breaking up. All of the "I love you"s he said, I guess that was bullshit. I just want him back. I'm not saying I can't be happy without him. I can, and I will be one day. I just don't want to be. Fuck this.