Warning long text! I was a melancholic kid and at early ages I got a terrible depression then I rejected and I've become really quiet person and an obsessive one. All this time I think that my obsession is my height but now I realize that my real obsession is womans. I was feeling like there is no music in my life like a movie that boring without music but I didn't realize that until 2 weeks ago. I was always looking for someone to love or sometimes just for my lust but I was hurting myself because the cure I was looking for was not womans It was music! I started to learn guitar, and study about my physics theory with reading good books, smoking fine tobacco and eating good meals I relaxed too much and I can hear the music now It is still playing at lover tones and volume but it is better than before. I freezed my facebook account, Im trying to quit watching porn and at outside I dont even look at womans because I have to get rid of this obsession. When my new life starts to rock I wont look for the people makes me depressed or dont call me when there was a funny event. They sometimes said me that Im boring person, Im not I just love listening and the thing is nobody can be boring without an another person! Im always listening pink floyd coming back to life because the seeds of life and change planted for me and I will kill the past and come back the life again!