I get really upset when I think about death and what comes afterwards. When I was younger I literally started crying when thinking about it. feel like there's no mission in life because in the end you're going to die anyway. And after put in to the coffin and underground is there anything at all? I don't ever want to die because of this fear of being in darkness for the eternity. But at the same time I'm feeling suicidal and have no passion for life.