Yesterday I flirted a lot with a guy on a party. He was druk and doesn't remember a thing, I was drunk too but I can control myself in that state. I tell everyone who asks that it was just fun and nothing to care about. The truth is I liked him very much but I know that he isn't interested in me at all ( he thinks it's ridiculous) so I stopped it. It just seems I can't what makes me angry about myself and hurts like hell every time I realise that he doesn't thinks the same way.